Reminiscences

Christmas is here to mark the day Jesus was born.
And the final festive season of the year,
Much to some, they might favor,
Much to some, may not favor.

Not once, I have yearned so much to end the year, yet.
Until now that is.

Just reminding myself of my actions makes me shudder.
Of course, you'll be asking yourself "who will know?"
Reason : Because no one asks.

I am not a simplistic person, though my appearance might be.
Neither does that tell others that I'm not sociable.

There are many things I did for people I hated to do.
Why? Needless to say, those people are undubitably the ones closer to me.
There are many things that I did that went unnoticed throughout the year,
but that doesn't matter any more.

People come and go. And I have the liberty to choose who I want to stay with .
The same goes with the other person.
In life, we have to choose people that will stick with you through thick and thin.
No, I'm not talking about people who just say: "Hey, are you okay?"
Please.
Even kindergartener's can say that.

I, for one, have tried. If the other party does not return the graciousness,
then I know that, 'it' won't last long.

I won't disagree, perhaps people have different personalities. Shy? Honest? Straightforward? Cunning? But heck, if the ingredients do not mix, why bother
continuing?

During my 1 and 2's, life was carefree. My first crush? Gave a buncha real flowers.
Didn't make it. But guess that was just puppy. Other than that, lovely friends I had.
Jerry, Dan, K&B, Elmo&milky chocolate. It was just.. too good to be true.
Met Jh & Yh for the first time in MT class, and after watching them perform their antics, I thought : "Wow, i'd like to be friends with them, but too bad, they only talk Chinese."
Jerry... my first friend. I'm glad that you got a job you like. And I hope you don't glue any of your colleagues's chair.
With that, I hung out with my old group until 3.

3 was ... alright. And I soon got a new buncha friends together with some old ones.
Met Candy here for the first time, can still remember her greeting sentence(in chinese) : "You remember my name anot??"
From there, she intro'd Jh to the group. Without much hassle, she was already part of us till 5.
Jh at 3 wasn't exactly on my 'must-be-bff' list. Well, I guess things do change.
Though i'm surprised that my 1's wish actually came true.

With that, 3 had some memorable experiences. My first flour fight. Yeah, mindless fun. Reality hit hard though. I knew it wouldn't last.

On to 4, 4 was a developing year for me. My personality started changing the most during this year. Made effort to get to know people better. As a result, I was closer to some people, while further apart from some as well. Natural I guess.

That's not all though. 4 was a... more of a study year for me. I kinda like found the importance all of a sudden.

Lastly, 5. 5 was the final developing stage. I was surprised. Heh.
Very. Surprised. Well, Jh managed to top my list. Truthfully, I don't know why as well. Natural instinct? Or pure epicness? Not sure myself. Something so profound that I cannot describe it myself. In any case, whatever she do, I'll be on her side of the river.

Well then, I'm also pretty glad I got to know F&F more as well. Some awesome planners we have there. Chalets, gatherings, photos all done by these two lil ladies.
Seeing them happy is just all it matters. Fio, such a dear caring person. Very dependant as well. For gals, thats good. Fhar... understanding, active, very quick thinker as well. When people get bored, you find 101 ways to get them to do something. Its a wonderful feat. You changed alot during the years as well. PK - GK
Not bad.

Long&Jx.
My 2 gayest friends.(Gay as in happy. Im serious.)We talk anything under the sun.
Its just great to have company like both of you. Jx doesn't mind this kinda talk, but Long does mind it. But he doesn't read blogs, so I don't give a damn. He used to piss me off with his emo-tude, but I got used to it, and vice versa, he got used to me as well. Its great to see understanding between people. Jx is like a jelly. He uses his retardness to blend into our talk. Totally awesome. On the good side, he's a great friend. When you're down, talk to him. He cares, very deeply. He's also a very understanding gentleman.

Continuing about the 5's, this year, besides finalizing the frenship stuff, I had more fun in 5 than 4's, mainly cuz the class also got used to me I guess, when I first came, alot of cold glances and cold shoulders to me, now it just feels like an entirely different thing. I won't go into detail.

Not to forget, the over zealous teachers about our studies. I'm glad they are glad to know that I like to study. And its fun to mingle with the friendly teachers, I mean, they are like friends now. With all due respect though, because they are older.

Well then, thats the past. I may or may not want to keep some, but nevertheless, its still there. Whether I like it or not. Same goes to you readers out there about your past. Accept it as it is. Shape your future instead of dwelling in the past. I had fond memories. Had. But I guess it's now clouded with bad thoughts, I could say it is residing and slowly becoming clearer, but I guess that's just a lie.

I want a new environment. I want to meet new people. I want to meet ...
And no emos. Excluding WL. Since hes such a badass.

Merry Christmas to all.

And this, shalt be the past as well. Never the present, never the future. Neither do I want it to repeat itself.

Good day, and good bye.