The Perfect Lie

I am Neutral.
I am Diffuse.
FF's are just another perfect lie.

To be honest, It's going nowhere.
Strangers treat me better.
Sincere or not, at least they bother to say a "Thank you!" and give a warm smile afterwards.
Rather than just taking this kindness for granted, like so many people do.

They think, I'm going to like stay with them forever and kiss their asses.
Oh no, you're terribly wrong.

Wonder why when people don't communicate for long periods of time and lost touch?
Try it yourself.

Memories are just memories; and without a follow-up, these mere memories just slowly fade away.

I'm being pretty straightforward here.

So, from here now, It's the game of "I ignore you, you ignore me. And we just fuck off with our lives."

Good advice to myself as well.

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Going out alot; my quiet life has been altered and destroyed. Projects, shopping for food to cook, mingle with friends and buying that Illustration book for deco... is really burning holes in my wallet.

Its REALLY fun to talk to strangers. Especially shy ones.
They'll give you a timid look; much similar to a mice and squeek a little "Hello." from that petite mouth of theirs. Following up with a half-smile which you can identify right away that they are uncomfortable. HAHA! Totally priceless.

Definitely worth it to widen my scope of people rather than getting stuck in a hole.

They could probably be described as a "rojak" of people. The mix of shy and outgoing, affective, bold, weird people. Fascinating ain't it?

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That being said, all good things will end. Learning how to not get attached will really come in handy in this situation. On the other hand, It teaches you how to be partially cold-hearted - to some extent. I bet there will be some naive people who will think "I don't wanna leave this group... I can't live without them." when we part. Well, excluding the back part, I bet definitely think that maybe around 4-5 will think that way.

You see, Its not they don't know, Its just the conflict between your culture and universalism/logic/truth. Many people feel that most truth's being said are harsh. It's just that humans seem to adore to dwell on sad issues rather than the happy ones, which brings us back to the part about "taking kindness for granted".
Pessimists; not that I have anything against them, but one must learn to see the beauty of the world, and not stay stuck in a cardboard box wanking your life away and complain about your disdains about the world. Would you tell your next generation how dull your life was? And find nothing to say about the happy side.

Then again this is my culture: and you got 101 reasons to criticize me about what YOU believe and what I DON'T. I don't give a damn. I offer advice, take it or leave it. Well, if you don't even bother to ask then just gtfo.

And oh, people DO notice when you only come to them to ask for help and then ignore them when you do not need any help. Its friggin' obvious.

Do you find this serious wall of text depressing?

If yes, I won't even bother to comment on it. Just perhaps you're too much of an affective person who put emotion over logic. It's proven that girls usually put emotion over logic. While guys are like "no bullshit" and go for the logic path rather than the emotional path. There are some guys who are emotional, no doubt about that. But they're few and inbetween.

Key to relationship? I came across many books that teaches how to keep a relationship going and to summarize all those text in the books it just touches two main things: Do NOT take people for granted(as stated above) and giving way to your romantic interest by understanding that women are generally emotional and men are generally logical. By overcoming these differences, you can almost guarantee your relationship. You think its so easy? NO. That's the hard part. As for me, I've been trying... so to speak. But it's just too bad that it's not mutual.

If no, then you're pretty much a serious person as well. Not to mention you might be a future critic or perhaps a narcissist.

And so, to end this scripture, Its best that you take note that this is a blog, and these comments are based on what I feel is right. Which is my value, not yours. If you take my advice, gracias and good luck with your life. If not, you're free to do what you think is right and follow your path to success by your own means.

Also, if you find that I'm arrogant and forcing you to take my advice, either your English is horrid or you are just not mature enough to accept to notice that I'm actually respecting each and everyone's views about how they should live their life.
It's pretty fascinating to find how some people live.

I respect your decision.
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Phew, all this yada yada actually made me feel better. Since alot of stuff have been going on in my life unconciously. Like..
Nay, it's not fun being direct. But basically, I hate to get ignored. And that hate multiplies day by day.

On a lighter note, I've finally made my small debut as a piano player!
Went to SAM today. Found an antique Grand Piano and inquired whether I could play it or not.
Was pretty nervous infront of all my new mates, but pulled off a decent medley.
Felt pretty grand with the applause and such.
But I seriously thank you all, for listening and the wonderful praises with utmost sincerity.

Medley gone as such, Ensei-HoukiBoshi-Right here waiting for you-Tong Hua

You guys made my day.
Rather than meeting people who just keep silent.

+1 To affective people.

Off to continue my project.